out of this world.

i feel kind of alienated from everyone.

i dont feel like partying. i dont feel like really going out that much with my usual crowd. on vacation everything was different. we ddint have as much fun, didnt get along as well, and it was just plain weird. sami and i are fine which is amazing. but everyone and everything else seems kind of out of place. maybe im growing up.

i am not sad. i know this sounds like such a downer post and that im sad all the time. but im not. im slowly forgetting ryan. almost all the way now. but i just feel like i have important things to do now. get down to business. i need a second job. i need to work my ass of for the rest of the summer. and that is not going to happen at biggby.

i want to accomplish things. i want to make the things i want to actually happen. i feel like i always do things half assed. im over that.

im motivated.
im successful.
im me.