confusion.

so this summer did not go at all how i planned.

i did not expect to have a wonderful boyfriend.
i did not expect to have a major falling out with some good friends over ridiculous things.
i did not expect to be so indecisive.
i did not expect to be so mean at times.
i did not expect to be such a beach bum.
i did not expect to keep in touch with as many people as i did.
i did not expect to miss gina so much.
i did not expect to be so jealous.
i did not expect i would cry so much.
i did not expect to be on the constant edge of a nervous breakdown.
i did not expect loving my house so much.
i did not expect wanting to run away from life so much.
i did not expect to worry about the future so much. (well i guess i did. i always do that)
i did not expect to live with sami again. :) good change tho.


oh well. i will take what i get. i wish i could change some things, but i know it will all work itself out sooner or later, and if it doesnt, well. all i can say is i have worried about things enough, and now it is time to just. plain. live.

let me live. let me be fearless. let me love.

<3